Reattaching the Cord - Mom Goes Back to Work!!

Wow, time sure does fly once you get past that ever so anxious "GET OUT OF ME" stage of pregnancy.  Looking back, those last three weeks were just SO SLOW and I never though the days would pass for me to finally meet my little girls.  But of course, they did pass and we welcomed our twin girls into our world on October 29th.  And here we are approaching December 21st and my first day officially back to work.  It's time to reattach the cord!

On alot of levels, I am completely ready to go back to work.  Twins are not easy, but I've streamlined the process and have had a LOT of active days of getting out, meeting people and running errands during my time off on maternity leave.  You have to be organized and establish a schedule right away in order to survive with any sanity which works just fine for me since my job IS to schedule and organize TGIWF. 

But as much as I love my girls, I'm ok with admitting that I'm not cut out to be a stay at home mom.  Kiddos to those woman who can do that, but I need more going on in my life.  I find myself either running too hard and falling down at the end of the day out of exhaustion, or sitting at home all day taking it easy and watching the clock waiting for Phill to come home because I'm bored.  There's not a really great happy medium there that doesn't include spending money at Target, so sending the girls to daycare and getting back in the saddle of work is what's best for all of us. 

I do still know and expect this is going to be a huge challenge for me, so I'm not oblivious to that.  Hence the "HOME" video below.  I'm sure I'll be anxious to get out of work and come home to see my little ones and Phill.  I've set myself up to EASE back into work to try to avoid any major meltdowns.  I've been working from home here and there to get myself back in the work mindset.  My first day back I'll be driving the girls with me to Boulder to meet Aunt Mi and pass them off for the day to her and then they'll ride home with me.  Tuesday & Wednesday they will be with Gigi (my mom).  Thursday the girls are packing up and coming to work with me!  Amazingly enough, TGIWF is going to help me babysit in the office!  I was nervous about that at first, but when I saw him willingly pick up the fussy one and console her the exact way I would have without getting a cross eyed look at me to take her back, I think we'll all survive the Thursday daycare at work day!  I'm not sure he realizes just how much they cry during they day.  Let's hope they are good little girls the days we need them to be!!

Thank you SO MUCH to my mom and sister for helping me out these two weeks before they are able to go to daycare!  I was extremely nervous about what to do with them, but IT'S GREAT TO HAVE FAMILY I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON!!!  You two never let me down! 

With this post coming to a close, I see I have a schedule request from TGIWF to tend to - So with that, wish me luck!  I've avoided both the baby blues AND any kind of postpardum depression.  If it's still going to happen, next week will be it!!

Amendment: Ouch!  Looking back at this post, I can see now that what I wrote didn't come out just right!  So I'd like to clarify my words for those stay-at-home moms that might read this and want to throw darts at my new web-site header.  BY NO MEANS do I want to insinuate that stay-at-home mom's do nothing all day.  Right now I have infant children that don't do anything but eat, sleep and mess their diapers.  There's not a whole lot of stimulation there so for me.  So staying at home all day leaves me with nothing to do but watch TV!  I am certainly one of those people that need adult interaction in my daily life so that leaves me with packing up my sleeping babies, heading to Target and racking up a $100 bill.  Doing this day in and day out would put us in the poor house!  SO...It's best that we go back to work!!  I admire women that can stay at home all day with screaming children.  I've had a few moments here on my own that I've had to close the door with a crying baby in a crib in order to regain my cool and to do that every day would likely make me lose my mind.  I don't have the patience to deal with that. Hopefully I've clarified my earlier description of my desire to go back to work. 

 

Comments

[Lena]

I am glad that you made the right decision for yourself however I do have to say that I was hurt by the "I need more going on in my life" comment about stay at home moms. I feel like I have too much going on in my life most the time.

Happy that Amy and your mom are able to help out with babysitting to make it a smooth transittion for you getting back to work.

Hope you have a productive last weekend of maternity leave.

[Lena]

I LOVE the new pics at the top ;-)

[Julie]

How did the first week go? Good I hope.
Being a stay-at-home mom is not for everyone - and what you wrote was just fine. I stay-at-home and have those days where I just wish I could go to work - because I am bored. The first year of being at Stay-at-home mom was the hardest for me - but you fall into a routine just like being at work and you find things to do to fill your time. Lucky for me and our budget - we lived an hour from Target or any other place worth shopping at - so we spent a lot of time and I mean about 5 days a week at the pool just so I could get out and be around other adults.
It is good that you realize now that you are a better mom to your kids when you have the chance to go to work. That way you don't resent them down the road - not that you ever would but why take the chance. :)

Enjoy your first Christmas together as a family.